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A total of 6 days of trainings including sat and sun having at total of 11 sessions consisting of both water and land. And tmr will another sat training. I finally realise and woke up from what i have been seeing. I guess if things are meant to be, it will be. After talking to cath about it last night, i guess i know what to do though i still have some thoughts in my head left with all the question marks. Anyway, that aside. Had some of my teammates over to my place. Or i should say like 12 of them. I guess it was a chill out night just slacking, watching DVDs and ofcos all the talks we usually had. I guess i have to say im sorry becos my room cant really fit all of them though they still managed to sleep like though they were in a sardin can. And also, people pls take care. Lots of us are down with flu. I HATE IT becos i cant sleep in peace. Had Mac breakfast in the morning and off they go. Some to work and some, home to catch up with their sleep just like me. Anyway, i cant wait to train at Macritchie for the whole one month until POLITE ends. Its really time for us to forcus and for me to fight it all out. I ain't gonna let whatever matters or problems effect me in my trainings. POLITE POLITE POLITE... stressful hearing these word. It gives me a fear in waking up knowing that i cant screw any of my trainings but only to be focus 110% and nothing less. Events for juniors aint confirm and i don't really know which events i'm going down but i know i'm going for two events and i will fight together with my team. Even if it takes me to drop and die. For the team. Not sure if i'm meeting the usual peeps in town later or not, i'm not really feeling that well. But then again its the last few days of the 1 week holiday. How irritatting could it be. So i guess we shall see about it or maybe i should just wait for their call.
Alright so... how about 3 sessions of training in a day? Well, just one word.... "CHUI" haha but its worthwhile. As the saying says " No pain, No gain" isn' it? COOL DEAL... hmm nevermind i'm alil crazy. Anyway gtg man. Needa sleep...
20 set times 500m on sunday was a KILLER!!!
Alright so here goes sat trg session. And its CHUI!!! I guess theres more to come. HAAA FOR SURE! Anyway, skipped work today due my sleepless night. Went for an awesome lunch once again then head home and had a nap till mum nugde me up for dinner. HAHA somehow i was suprise with the food mum and dad cook. SUPER WESTERN TODAY MAN. HAHA i guess thats because of my "not coming home for meals for like months...." It was an awesome meal and a very filling one. "Burp!" Had a nice shower... What a weekend huh? Dont get all so jealous because i will only have this treatment like once in a blue moon. So yeah! Anyway had photoshoots today after those crazy traingings. And i guess i won't be able to upload it because the size of it is too big though i'm yet to get those pictures. If i'm able to i will for my next post. HAHA alright i need to rest and get all boost up for trainings and work for tmr and throughout my "HOLIDAY". Like what coach said to me today " You have to get all BOOST up for POLITE!!!" ARRGGGHHHH i'm gonna paddle every shit in my head out and till i drop dead...
life has been complicated this couple of days. i guess it isn't good. short temper and sleepless night. I wish not to think about it. but i guess its easier said then done... whats happening? whats going on? she just came into my life in a blink of an eye. buy why? im falling. falling deep... but im afraid. im afraid of the pain i'm afraid that i might fall hard back on the ground. I thought i saw a light putting back my past. But somehow, i'm still in a dark tunnel just seeing lil holes of light spearing through. Who am i to you? The relationship between us isn't as easy as friends... why must it be so complicated... i miss you so badly... i can't text i can't spent time with u everyday the only thing we could communicate is by msn... Why are we going through all this... you took my breath away kissing me... im really missing you.... all i can do is to think of you.... i wish i could tell the complicity to you my friends but i doubt so. Whatever....
alright another day of ponning school... i just feel so lazy to move my butt to school. ITS SO FREAKING FAR!!! PARIS RIS TO WOODLANDS!!! i'm so sick of it man. SO SICK OF LOVE SONG... HAHA thats a song. Anyway went for NUM interview then have lunch and then head to school to meet the rest of my team to take the weekly ride. HAHA damn it reach LSR cat 1 till 7pm. So we couldn't paddle then we configure our boats and some were watching something interesting on their laptop. HAHA shhh secret! So after all that me and mat accompany ass to the coffee shop for his dinner and head home. haa life isnt that interesting afterall huh?
alright so much so that i'm feeling to tired and sleepy i actually skipped class like now. Its not a smart choice but i know if i carry on this way and i'm gonna have trianing later, i will be a dead chicken. I NEED MORE REST! Anyway, if wanna ask me hows life? my answer to that question will still be the same. It has always been like that... <--- haha this sentence reminds me of somebody... Anyway, i spend my whole sunday eating awesome Mexician food and Mr Glosz' place and drinking but you know being me skipping sunday training i kinda felt uncomfortable about it. so yea but this kinda thing are like once a year. So yup... I must say i ate alot. At times i just wonder am i walking out of the past? I dont know or the past is still hunting me? Whats with all the thinking through of the past memories and sadness that i've gone through. Let it go will be what i think but what about my feeling deep inside? How come i still feel the ache whenever i think of it... Can you please send the future to me? when do you wanna let me wait till or when will you stop punishing me because of the past? YOU HEAR ME UP THERE? WHEN WHERE HOW??? i live life with no regrets??? i dont think so... How come i have to do something just to not think about anything and some people don't? How come i have to keep things deep inside and others have their another half to talk to and share with? Life is never fair and have never been fair screw it. Sorry guys i just need to rant it and i will feel alright... Anyway, i will put my full concentration on later's training. to RPC JUNIOR TEAM: Guys, Polite is really just round the corner. I know it means alot to you guys. I just wish that we can go through all this tough time together and win what we aim for. We come so far together and i guess we wish to see tears of joy that all our effort paid off. Training is tough i agree but we still endure it agree? I just wish to see the team grow into a better stronger team. I know we can do it because all we need is to do it and really really put our 101% of hardwork. See you guys later in training. I wish to see all of you guys. Take care and rest well.
SIGH... whats wrong with me today?
TODAY's communication... GEEE don't really like that faci and i'm feeling very shag and sleepy... Ystd training was kinda killer??? Sat's training was too. I trained till i went blackout man. Amazing! Not at all. But yea what doesn't kill will only make you stronger. Anyway theres training today. Looking forward to it??? Hmmm well, i do but its just that i'm breaking apart soon. PPPFFTT! Well training hard will better pay off well... HOPEFULLY! haha anyway, went out after training ystd with mat, ken, dom, yuyu, cath, rainie and yudi. But only me mat ken yuyu cath yudi and rainie went to HAJI LANE to have dinner. I swear we had a very late dinner due to the waiting!!! HAHA
alright... sooo its the 5th week of school and two UTs have gone pass. Guess what! Science UT is screwed up! I KNOW NUTS ABOUT IT MAN. Enterprise was alright though so thats the bright side of it. Anyway my days have only been a cycle that repeats every single thing i do each day. BORING!!!! Yup... just got back from town when to have dinner with the guys in class and Natt... Thanks Natt for the Ayam (flat) .... dont know how to spell it in malay. HAHA tong pang on Noor's bike. so after that head down to boat quay to continue my tattoo after a game of pool. So i guess tattooing made up my day! WOOHOO!!! Well things in my life just cant fit into my brain because of the hurry-ing life i have so yea. But i guess things are going well. hee im gonna sleep early. all i need now is a break!
YAAAWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
